I Love Him

As some of you know Kayden & I have been having a really hard time lately. He is getting older & is old enough to realize what is going on between his mom, dad, & me. We both are getting so many mixed emotions that instead of talking about it we fought all the time. Well i finally i got the courage yesterday night to sit and talk with him, because instead of talking to him i was talking to everyone else about are problems, & that was not right.

So i sat down with him & I told him i know it is not easy not having your mom around a lot it is hard on you that she is never around when you go over to visit, but i am always going to be here for you no matter what the situation. I may not be Tasha *your mom* but i am your step mom and you can talk to me about anything. its not easy being a step mom and step son, but we can change that if we just listen to one another and do as asked things will be so much more simple. I love You Kayden and i would hate to see you hate me because of some differences that we have.

before i could finish my sentence he gave me a huge hug and told me that he loved me and i just shredded into tears.

I should not of told him the things i said, but i got so angry with him i didn't know what else to do, & all i had to do was sit down with him and talk to him. :( Am I a bad step mom? Do i not deserve to have him around me?

it is so hard to be a parent to someone else kid and try to make them as happy as possible so they don't feel like they are being neglected. Now that i look back yes i was a little hard on him and never listened to what he had to say. If i had just listened then we never would have been in this situation. From now on when he needs to talk i will sit with him and talk with him, because this past month or so has been HORRID and i don't want that again. I Love Him.