Adoption!

I cant imagine how hard it is to be an adoptive mom who has an open adoption with the their birth moms. Just thinking whether you had done something right or wrong? Are you raising them the way the Birthmoms wanted them to be raised? Is there something else you could have done better? Am i doing the right thing by having an open adoption? * well i guess the whole are you raising them the way the Birthmoms want is a little over board, but that was the only way i could think of it so don't take that question the wrong way* :)

Well the answer to those questions, there isn't anything you could do wrong, you raise them the way you were raised, you teach them the way they should be taught, you discipline them the way they need to be disciplined. There is nothing you could have done to make it better or worse we chose you to be there mom we had a connection that just kept telling us you were the one and no one else was going to give us that feeling of relief, because you had the qualities and things that we didn't have at that time. An open adoption just means they get to know two different kinds of parents, they will know you by the parents who loves them kisses them takes care of them makes sure they get ever cut and scrap kissed and I someone special in their lives.

Being a Birthmom is so special to me. Not only do i get weird looks from people saying you have a daughter? and that they would like to meet this wonderful girl and her family, but i tell everyone my amazing experience how i chose this family that i get pictures, and i get to be there for every Birthday, Christmas, and any other special occasion that they invite me too i have the best relationship with this family, that i could have ever dreamed possible sometimes i wish i was little and Shannon and Jeff adopted me i love them so much. * Shannon i want a pony too* :P and do i get to sleep in the room next to yours too* HEHE. There is one question i get the most from people and that is "Do you regret making this decision?" absolutely NOT!. Well why because there are people out there who have made the wrong decision by keeping there baby and are paying for it RIGHT now because they cant take care of themselves let alone take care of their child, and i wasn't going to be one of those people who struggled and watches their child struggle as well.

Hallie is where she needs to be, and the best part she is SEALED to her heavenly father & Parents for eternity, she is where she is today because of 3 people Shannon, Jeff, & I. She has been taken care of so well i couldn't ask for anything more.

I love you SWENSEN family. :)